Its official...I have a 3 year old! I am still having a hard time coming to grips with this but it is clear everyday that Charlie is growing up. He is so articulate and has his own ideas and an ever expanding imagination. He pretty much surprises me everyday with a new phrase or by connecting the dots in a way that I didn't know he could. As if Charlie getting big wasn't hard enough I turn around and see that Sean is just a few short months away from being 2. I guess that is what happens when they are 15 months apart. They both get big!! There is no longer a big one and a little one. Even though everything I am saying is melancholy and dramatic sounding I am so excited about where we are in life right now. The boys are so much fun and have found a certain independence in play time with each other that is a bit freeing for me. They still need their mommy quite a bit but it is so awesome to watch them play and interact with one another. Sean is a little parrot and repeats everything Charlie says and does. Charlie is a bit of a bully at times but lets face it...he was here first. The guessing game is coming to an end with the expansion of their vocabulary and i find myself leaving the house with one little monkey backpack and a few diapers and wipes. I also find myself going back and forth wondering about whether or not to have another baby. I can't help but feel that one more would be wonderful, but at the same time the thought of shaking things up and having more kids than I have hands absolutely freaks me out. I know that it has been done many times before, but my anxieties persist. I also feel the clock ticking...not a biological one but a sibling one...I don't want our third and probably final child to be too far apart in age from the other two and feel like a loner. Hopefully a lot of prayer and a few months will help me settle this matter in my heart.
The thing I am most excited about right now is the break in the weather! The long Indiana winters are tough with two little boys trapped inside for most of the day. We would get out and have a few play dates here and there but in the end you watch movies and color and build blocks until you just can't do it anymore. The Lord knows this because just when you are recovering from your most recent family crippling virus you get a day that is sunny and warm and you get to play outside. You feel new life breathed into your body and blessed in every way. We have our zoo membership in hand and plan to wear it out...i have already enjoyed some great walks around the neighborhood and trips out on the river with the in-laws are just around the corner. Oh yeah and Grilling!! Grilled food taste so much better than oven baked!
Brian and I just celebrated 6 years in marriage and took an awesome little trip down to DC. I have never been there and I was in total awe of all the of the American history I was able to experience. Brian has been there a few times and was able to show me around. He also has a much better understanding of American and world history than I do so it was nice to have someone to teach me about the things I was seeing. We have been a lot of places in 6 years and made many transitions in life after having children and buying our first home and all of the side stuff that comes with it. I feel so blessed to have someone that I can enjoy life with so much. We have a loving, trusting and growing relationship that we celebrate every year!
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