There is always that weird time after you make a major transition. You know...like when you finish school for the summer break or you graduate from high school...for the next few weeks you feel like there is something you should be doing, but in reality there is not. Before we left Washington I was taking an infant to work with me 4 days a week, working with the youth group at our church, packing a house and tying up any loose ends that I could think of from our office move a few weeks back. Now I am jobless, away from all responsibility, aside from Charlie, and feeling like I don't know what to do with myself. I am keeping up with the laundry pretty easily and trying to cook a little and taking daily walks with Charlie and Daisy (our beagle). I do have a mommy and baby play group this Thursday...that will be fun..and I am trying to catch up with old friends...but how many lunches out can I really afford. It is not a bad thing, but I find myself feeling guilty for having this free time and not filling it all with something productive. Looking for a place to live is high on our priority list...started that today without much luck. I know something is out there. I will get plugged in at church soon. I have always had a passion for youth ministry and could always do that...but I want to really be used where needed so I want to take my time and ask around. I know that so many people say that they just cannot find time for themselves and that life is out of control busy...I am sure as more kids come along and get older my life will resemble theirs. I am trying to focus on my relationship with the Lord, my husband, son, friends and family. The rest will all catch up with me in due time.
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What a blessing it is Ash that you do have this time right now to focus on yourself and your family and not have a million other distractions! I love you dear, since I do not have a baby perhaps I can bring my doggy over and Daisy and Maebe can play and Charlie can spend some quality time with "Aunt Shanna"
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